its my 4th year now since i started boycotting christmas. for some reason christmas is just an ordinary day for me except maraming handa, regalo, bla bla...i dont know di ko na ramdam ang christmas since nung umalis si mama for abroad last dec 2004 at nag kataon talaga na mag papasko eh no?.our christmas will never be the same kung wala si mama. and yung last dec. 2006 naman naki pag break si gf wow! ang saya saya talaga! and take note through text for the love of christ! sya yung inang gf ko na iniyakan ko kasi i was looking forward on how are we going to celebrate ang christmas together. pero ganun na talaga eh. anyways di nako bitter. haha.as of this moment hag hahanda na ang mga tao dito samin at mag pupuntahan ang mga pinsan ko. after nung mga kasiyaahan usually gagawin ko aakyat ako sa kwarto then iiyak nalang thingking mas masaya sana kung nandito si mama. christmas is the time na i will say na sobrang vulnerable ako. chirstmas ko eh yung "where are you chirstmas" yung theme song ng the grinch. sobrang akma sakin yun its been my christmas song for 4 years now. i would say na pagka madrama din ako at buhay ko. i once commit suicide last 2005 but im not ready yet to share my story masyadong personal at bloody kung di lang ako nahuli ni ate nun malamang patay nako but for the record hindi dahil sa babae! ang babaw naman kung gagawin ko yun dahil alng sa babae.
anyways, have a fun christmas yall ( yall? ghetto??) haha you wish!
